I woke up in the wee hours of the morning yesterday and couldn’t get back to sleep. What I did next is important. Here’s why.
Insomnia is often a trigger and a symptom of depression. When I couldn’t get back sleep within about thirty minutes, I decided to get up and go downstairs to the sofa. I had very quick moment when I almost panicked——but I didn’t.
Here’s what I did instead. I admitted that there was something that was bothering me which I can do nothing about. It is not my dilemma but it can certainly affect me but,
I will survive.
Besides, pain is as much a part of life as is joy. If it ends up hurting me, I will let it hurt. I refuse to let it make me bitter or mad. If I do it will last much longer and hurt much more. Pain is like the weather-sometimes it’s sunny, sometimes it’s cloudy. I appreciate the sunshine because of the rain.
Beside, rain doesn’t destroy anyone.
I eventually fell asleep feeling a sense of peace. I have too much good in my life to be hurled into the pit again. I guess I’m feeling a little protective of my own heart. (By the way, God says we should guard our heart. I understand that to mean that I don’t have to put myself in harm’s way. I can let other’s actions and their consequences remain with them. I need to be concerned with my own actions.
I woke up this morning still feeling peaceful. That sense that I will be fine has stayed with me.