insomnia


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insomnia

I woke up in the wee hours of the morning yesterday and couldn’t get back to sleep. What I did next is important. Here’s why.

Insomnia is often a trigger and a symptom of depression. When I couldn’t get back sleep within about thirty minutes, I decided to get up and go downstairs to the sofa. I had very quick moment when I almost panicked——but I didn’t.

Here’s what I did instead.  I admitted that there was something that was bothering me which I can do nothing about. It  is not my dilemma but it can certainly affect me but,

I will survive.

Besides, pain is as much a part of life as is joy. If it ends up hurting me, I will let it hurt. I refuse to let it make me bitter or mad. If I do it will last much longer and hurt much more. Pain is like the weather-sometimes it’s sunny, sometimes it’s cloudy.  I appreciate the sunshine because of the rain.

Beside, rain doesn’t destroy anyone.

I eventually fell asleep feeling a sense of peace. I have too much good in my life to be hurled into the pit again. I guess I’m feeling a little protective of my own heart. (By the way, God says we should guard our heart.  I understand that to mean that I don’t have to put myself in harm’s way. I can let other’s actions and their consequences remain with them. I need to be concerned with my own actions.

I woke up this morning still feeling peaceful. That sense that I will be fine has stayed with me.

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