YUPO paper. I have no idea what it’s supposed to be but l like it. It reminds me that life is ambiguous at best.)
a messy life
I don’t know about you but I find life pretty messy a lot of time. The perplexities, the questions, the downright confusion. I have a hard time understanding where God is at times.
Like learning today that a friend of ours, who was just diagnosed with lung cancer five weeks ago has stopped his treatment because the tumor in his lung continues to grow even after aggressive treatment. His journey on this earth is coming to an end very soon. He gives generously of his time and his money. I don’t know anyone that doesn’t like him. Why him, I ask? Shouldn’t cancer be reserved for murderers, rapist, terrorists, etc? (At least it should in my world. Yes, I know how that sounds. Especially for someone who ascribes to Christianity. I’m just saying what a lot of people think.)
And yet our friend would be the first to tell you of his faith and why he still believes in a God who loves him. This might well be his prayer as well:
(from http://tworiversblog.com/) “God, sometimes it is so easy to believe and sometimes… I know You are good. I KNOW IT, but sometimes… it just gets so hard to see it. You love me. You want the best for me far more than I even want it for myself. Sometimes I just don’t know how You are working good through the mess this life sometimes tosses me. In those times, as I seek understanding, help me to never lose faith.”
I hope this prayer finds a responding chord in your heart and encourages you in your faith.