up and down and all around
Just like in the grieving process, we recover from depression in leaps and bursts. We feel we’re never going to get better. We have good days, and bad days. We have good moments and bad moments. Depression, by its very nature, flings us all over the emotional spectrum. It’s part of the process of healing. It’s never a straight line. It’s almost always a roller coaster ride. Eventually, it evens itself out.
Moods, in general, are seldom very stable. It’s a rare person whose moods remain even on a consistent basis. And generally it’s a matter of personality and background not successful coping skills. There are some people who are just naturally more of the “even-keel” type of personality. My husband is one of these. He’s the most stable person I’ve ever met. BUT, he too has suffered depression. It’s easy to assume that certain personalities suffer more mood swings than other people. That’s simply not true. Just off the top of my head, I could personally name ten people who have suffered depression and their personalities couldn’t be more different. Two or three are total extroverts, a few are introverts and the rest are somewhere in between. By the way, they also have very diverse income and education levels. Their individual circumstances are unique as well.
I think one of the concepts that was the hardest for me to accept was the fact that while my personal circumstances were good, I still suffered bouts of depression. Let me assure you, depression knows no boundaries. Anyone, no matter how clever, talented, rich, intelligent or educated can suffer depression. While depression is more common in the older generation, it can strike any age. Either sex, too, can experience depression although women experience depression twice as much as men. No need to elaborate here as every woman reading this knows why-hormonal fluctuations.
So no matter where you are in your recovery, take heart by knowing that the roller coaster ride you’re on doesn’t mean you’re recovery is in jeopardy. If you’re working on your depression, you are going to get better.
When we’re having a “roller-coaster” kind of day, it’s discouraging. On these kinds of days, it pays to look over our day and try to see some cause and effect. And there always is a cause and effect. Your moods aren’t all over the place for no reason. Just don’t give up. So let me ask you, how has your day been? Has it been up and down? Can you pinpoint any causes?
(FYI. I’m doing the best I can with what is a HUGE job—-learning how to develop a blog. I’ve got two big books I’m reading but its slow going. Bear with me. I’m trying to figure out how to “link”, use widgets, set-up my page, download pictures, etc. This is a frustrating project, especially so for someone prone to anxiety. But I am determined. Please hang in there with me.
Also, I’m hoping that by September I’ll be to the point when I will start to give you some very practical tips about how to defeat depression. I just don’t want to take a chance that I might lose it all or that I won’t be able to respond to comments. Thanks for your understanding.)